I felt a lot of feelings around this relationship; and dismissed even more. Years have passed, but I often still think about what I learned. One does get tired of reframing every hurt heart into a life lesson, but I prefer it to looking back with bitterness. I’ve been praying that God would keep my heart soft and free.
You asked me to be kind the day you held my hand. You told me I was everything, all you ever wanted. You had your heart’s desire and you left me perplexed. When the moment came our conversation strained, you beat me to the punch as if there were a ring. Did you want a challenge but not in love? Did you want to work but not on us? I’d like to take your feelings take them at your word and not recall with bitter mind, how words spoken were left unheard. A truth was missed for you and me: Honesty is the kindest word.